Freedom Funk.

I don’t know what that means, either.

11:47pm

I probably won’t get done typing before the day changes, so the date may be off, not sure.

Anyways, I couldn’t keep the tiredness away. I started up Civ V and played for a little bit, but I got to the point where I couldn’t keep my eyes open anymore. So, I went and laid down for a bit and actually slept. For about an hour and a half. Better than nothing, and I actually am not all that tired even now.

Once I got up, I started up Civ V again, and after like three hours, or maybe 2.5, I finally achieved victory. I got a Culture victory, although I was pretty close on the Science victory, too.

So, that took me, according to Steam, 22.4 hours to finish that game. That’s what I get for playing on Marathon. Maybe I should try a faster paced game. Of course, by the end of the game, it was taking ages to process a turn. With 12 Civs, I guess that makes sense. I suppose I should have turned off animations.

But, at any rate, that’s done now. I’m sure I’ll get tempted to play it again at some point, but I’m pretty good with it right now.

I didn’t play any Titan Quest today. I did play a little bit of Fallout 4, but it was mostly to just test out a new mod. The mod is a usable motorcycle. It’s kinda nifty. Of course, you can’t ride it with Power Armor, but that’s not the end of the world. Just means that this character probably won’t use it much.

I have been looking through the mods a little bit more on Nexus. Found a couple that I might try out. There’s another one that adds a bunch, but you really need to have a couple other things installed, too. Well, other mods. I might do it, but I haven’t decided for sure yet.

I probably will. You know how I do. I will end up modding the hell out of Fallout 4 at some point. I suppose I might as well do it now. I mean, I’m down to just Nuka-World and the main questline. And probably a side quest that I’m not aware of or two.

I am glad that I have all the settlements built up and full of artillery. I used it once, but I need to work on that more. I like it. I actually used it to kill a group of Gunners on top of a highway just by throwing the smoke grenade under the overpass. Worked like a charm.

So, I may end up installing some more mods very soon. I only had over one hundred in New Vegas, so I can’t imagine how many I may end up with on 4, with it actually being stable and all. Well, for me at least. I think it’s only ever crashed once. That’s pretty good, really.

As for the rest of the evening, I’m not entirely sure yet. I will probably go and watch Fallout 4 videos in bed at some point. I may even do that in the near future. We will see. I may just keep going through the mods and see what I can see. If I do, then I will probably play a little bit, at least to make sure it works, or at least doesn’t fail. Heh.

So, tomorrow will probably be Fallout 4 mostly. Although, I may decide to finish off TQ Act 2. I suppose it depends on how I feel when I get to that point tomorrow. If I had to guess, though, I would say FO4.

Well, at any rate, I suppose that’s all I have for tonight. I’ll be back in the morning/afternoon or whatever.

Sunset Bullets

Or something.

11:16am

It’s too early. Well, I suppose it’s not so bad now, but when I woke up at eight something this morning, it was too early. Especially since it had only been like four hours since I fell asleep.

Surprisingly, I’m not really tired, at least not right now. That will probably change in a little bit.

Not surprisingly, I don’t have much to say right now. I suppose that’s because not much has changed since last night, and I just did what I said I was going to, and that was it.

I’ve already gone around to my usual sites today, so I suppose I don’t have much else to do right now except maybe play something. It will probably be Civ V to start with. If I finally get through this silly game, I’m not entirely sure what will be next. Maybe Titan Quest, but I’m starting to feel the pull of Fallout 4 again. I suppose we shall see.

That’s all I have for now. I’ll be back, at least usually.

Time For The Night.

It’s true.

12:58am

I spent the time from my last post until now playing Civ V. Still working on the same game. It’s getting close to ending, though.

Wow. I really haven’t done anything else of note tonight. And I think I’m going to go lay down and watch some vids before I finally fall asleep, if I do.

This is a shitty and short post, but I really have not that much to say right now, I suppose.

A Cat Is In My Way.

And I can’t see the whole screen.

5:06pm

So, this is really the first that I’ve been able to post today. I suppose that maybe I could have earlier, but I was so tired I could barely do anything. And that’s after actually getting some sleep last night. Granted, it wasn’t all night or anything like that, but a little bit after I got up today, I decided to go lay down for a while and actually slept a little bit longer. Not sure how I managed to do that, but I suppose it wasn’t a bad thing.

Of course, that probably means that I won’t be able to sleep tonight. I suppose we shall see for sure later, but I just kinda get that feeling. I could be wrong, though.

Since I’ve mostly been sleeping, I haven’t really done much else today. I did some web surfing, but that was about it. I guess it could be worse. I do plan on getting some game time in today again. I’ll probably go back into Civ V and try to get that game finished off, but that may be a long ways away still.

I could also work on Titan Quest. Or there are other games that I could play. I could start up Fallout Shelter on PC. Maybe I’d do a better job of it than I did on the phone. Maybe. And then there’s hundreds upon hundreds of other games, but you know that already.

I suppose I could do more than one game. I am kinda anxious to get through Act 2 of TQ. But I also want to work on my Civ game. I think this is the farthest that I’ve gotten in a game of Civ V. I’m not even sure that I’ve played a single player game of it before. I think my other games of Civ V were with Auren and I don’t remember if we finished one or not.

I kinda wish I was playing Civ VI, but I’m not sure how I feel about the changes. There were some in Civ V that I wasn’t overly fond of, but I’ve been dealing with them. I think my favorite was IV. I played that quite a bit, although not as much as I played III. I played the hell out of that.

At any rate, I’m going to get some gaming in today. I’m just not totally sure what I’m going to be playing yet. I’m sure that I’ll figure it out pretty soon, though. I mean, I’m going to want to start soon, so that should help me figure that out.

I guess that’s about all I have right now. I can’t seem to think of anything else interesting for you right now. Probably because I’ve mostly been asleep. I guess I’ll wander off for a while.

It’s Just Getting Going.

The night, that is.

3:49am

I am tired. Really tired, but I doubt I’ll be sleeping anytime soon. You know how that goes with me. It’s just about bedtime, but I think I’m going to watch a couple videos before I try to sleep. We’ll see how that works. Maybe I’ll fall asleep while watching.

I ended up laying down for a while this afternoon. I actually slept a little bit. Not much, but a little bit. Then after that, I went ahead and brought up Civ V. I played that the rest of the day/night. I was going to play Titan Quest, too, but I just didn’t. Maybe tomorrow. The sad part is that I’m still on the same Civ game, and it’s still not over yet.

I saw an article today about an interesting Fallout 4 mod that adds a rideable motorcycle. I’m thinking about checking it out. I don’t know if I will for sure or not, but I’m thinking about it.

Also, I’m terribly disappointed about today. That stuff not working for me just pretty much totally ruined my day and my plans. I should have known that wasn’t going to work. I mean, that’s my luck, and I wanted it. I wanted to get a little something out of the truck. I guess I should have just bought a video game instead.

I just want something that works, is that really too much to ask? I guess maybe it is. I kinda wanna try it again, but I know I’m just going to get the same result. Sucks.

I guess I don’t have a whole lot else to add tonight. I’m gonna watch some Fallout and hope sleep comes to me. Or death. Either one would be fine.

I Am Disappoint.

I should have known.

1:06pm

So, I didn’t fucking sleep last night. Not at all, and I was laying in bed trying for over six hours. It just didn’t happen. Why? Who the fuck knows. I get the feeling this is going to be the start of something bad.

So, as you might guess, I’m still tired. I’m actually kinda surprised that I’m not more tired. I will be later, though. I can guarantee that.

Also, the other day I decided to splurge on myself a little bit. Since the regular stuff hasn’t been working, I decided to get something a little stiffer. Unfortunately, my usual place has been rejecting my card for some reason, and won’t respond to my inquiry to customer service.

Like a moron, though, I accidentally went for the wrong thing. Same company, different brand. And different scent. Meaning, totally different and absolutely fucking worthless. Didn’t do a damn thing. Since I used a little bit of the money from the truck for it, I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised.

And don’t get me wrong, I tried and tried. Nothing. No thing. Nada. Zip. I guess I just don’t react to those chemicals. Or something. It could be because I haven’t slept, but the chances of that are pretty damn remote.

So, both of those things have gone bad today. Kinda makes you wonder what the rest of the day is going to be like. I’m not sure I want to know.

I wanna go lie down for a while, but I get the feeling that it will just be like the night was, and I will stay wide awake.

I am not a happy person right now.

And Now It’s Night.

Or early morning.

4:12am

I should probably be in bed. Actually, I’m going to head that way very soon. I’m tired, but I’m pretty sure I won’t fall asleep anytime soon. I can hope, though.

I spent the evening and night playing some games. I think that’s the longest that I’ve gamed at one time in quite a while. I played Titan Quest AE for a bit and then I switched over to Civ V. I played Civ longer, and I still have a long ways to go in that game. Heh.

I’m still in Act 2 in Titan Quest. I hope to get finished with at least that much tomorrow. I’m going to try, at least. And then I may play more of my Civ game. Not sure yet, we’ll see.

That was pretty much my night in a nutshell. That and having wrestling going on the other monitor was it. I don’t know that it was the most exciting night ever, but it worked well enough for me.

I guess I don’t have too much else to add right now. At least, I can’t really think of anything. Well, maybe one thing. Never mind. Anyways, I’m out.

Sometime During The Day.

That sounds about right.

2:58pm

As you can probably imagine, I had problems sleeping again last night. That’s a nightly occurrence, of course. I hope that we can finally find something, besides the alcohol, that actually helps me sleep. That would be very nice. It took a long time to get to sleep last night, and I then slept late again. I get the feeling that I’m going to have to try and stay up all night one night to get my sleep schedule kinda back to where it was.

Well, I could do that if I could actually sleep, I suppose. I’ll tell ya, it’s no fun laying in bed, tired as hell, and still not being able to fall asleep. I don’t know what the hell my problem is, but I am not enjoying it. On the bright side, I haven’t had another marathon week of not sleeping. That sucked even worse. I mean, I went to bed and everything, just didn’t sleep at all for six days.

So, here I am, up later than usual. Don’t get me wrong, though. I’ve been awake for a little while now, I just hadn’t posted yet. Of course, I’m taking care of that now, so I suppose it’s no big thing.

I ended up going and laying down a bit early to watch some vids. I kinda figured I would. I’m not entirely sure why I do it. Or at least why I lay down to do it. It’s not like it helps me fall into a sleepy state. I mean, technically, I will be sleepy at some point, but falling to sleep, that’s something else.

I talk about sleeping problems a lot. I suppose that’s because it’s a major problem for me. I assume it’s a side effect of the depression, though I have no real way of knowing, of course. For someone with my array of problems, I seem to harp on this one a lot, though.

I suppose that’s because it actually affects so many things. From energy level to mood to just plain quality of life. It’s not a good time.

Okay, enough about that for now. Time to talk about something else. Too bad there’s not much else to talk about right now, with the day being young for me still.

Of course, the usual questions come up, like am I going to play a game, and if so, what? I don’t really have a good answer for that at this time. I assume that I will most likely play something today, but what? I would imagine that it would most likely be Titan Quest or Fallout 4. Of course, there are other games that I could play as well, but those are the two that I’m trying to concentrate on right now, so that I can at least get through one of them. I mean, technically, I’ve already been through Fallout 4 and most of the way through Titan Quest. I want to get them finished off, though, at least in the case of Titan Quest. I imagine I will go back to Fallout 4 several times over the next few years.

Another good question is what do I play after that? That’s something that I’m less sure of. At this point, it’s looking like Fallout 4 will be done before Titan Quest, but I am going to try and work on that. I suppose I will probably replace Fallout 4 with another RPG of some kind. Well, that’s what I assume right now, but that’s not necessarily going to be the case. I will probably replace Titan Quest with some other ARPG, maybe Grim Dawn. I mean, it’s by pretty much the same people anyways, and I already have a game started. The real question is will I remember what the hell I was doing?

So, that’s my overall gaming plan. Of course, that doesn’t account for any of the small games that I’d like to try. I have so many of those. Speaking of so many, I have a ton of game clients running on my computer all the time. Battle.net, Steam, GOG Galaxy, Uplay, etc. There’s at least a couple more, too. So much gaming, I’m going to have to find a genie to grant my wishes so that I am able to get through them all.

I wish I could give you a good list of the smaller games I’m thinking about, but I’m not even sure where I would start. Not sure if that’s good or bad. Now, when I say smaller games, I’m mostly referring to games that are only a few hours long, or games like Civ, where you can jump into a game for a while and even if it’s not done in a couple hours, it’s still not a very big time commitment. Although, I suppose if you consider the campaigns of games like that, they could be considered larger, but for some games, I don’t bother with that stuff, and go straight to the custom match or single match or whatever option there is.

Maybe at some point, I’ll come up with a list of the games that I want to get to in the next few months, and see how well I do with that. If nothing else, it would give me a starting point to get into some of these games, since they’re on my list. Making the list might not be so easy, though, with all these games I have going on.

Maybe someday I’ll get through a good portion of my game collection. I mean, I do have a while to live yet, I think, so that should give me some time. Of course, it would be nice if everyone would just stop making games for a while so that I could try and catch up. I’ll never get caught up if people keep putting out games. Especially if they’re good, or really bad. I have a few of those that I’ve bought just because they suck. Why? Good question.

Well, I suppose I’m all out of talkie parts for right now. I can’t think of anything else to add at this time, at least. I guess this will be the end of our short time together for this day, or at least this part of the day. Or something.

Four In The Afternoon.

No, it’s not that time right now, either.

11:35pm

So, I spent a bit of time playing Titan Quest AE today. I have a feeling that I am wrong, and the game is quite a bit longer than I think. Not that this is a bad thing, just not quite what I was expecting, I suppose. I’ll get through it sooner or later. I’ve never gotten all the way through. Well, I did the base game, but I don’t think I ever finished off the expansion. I’ll finally get around to doing that.

Of course, that means that I actually wasn’t playing Fallout 4. Kinda crazy, I know, but I thought I’d change it up a little bit. I’ll probably do that a bit more over the next few days. I’m still not gaming quite as much as I would like, but it’s getting better.

I thought about playing something else a bit, too. Just, as usual, not totally sure what. I want to get more time into Devil Daggers, but I am totally not good at that game. I actually played it the other day, but the widget doesn’t show it for some reason. Of course, it wasn’t very long that I was playing, but that shouldn’t matter.

I’m thinking that I may go lay down early and do some YouTube. I’ve kinda grown fond of that lately, although that means less time for gaming. Well, at least a little bit, depending on when I go and lay down. Not that I really need to, but I have enjoyed it a bit lately. Of course, it doesn’t help me sleep, but I don’t think it was ever intended to. It would be nice if it did help, though.

So, tomorrow should be about the same as today, which means that I should be able to start gaming kinda early. I mean, there are probably a lot of days that I could do that and I don’t. But now, I’m trying to get out of this rut of inertness. Though I haven’t this week, I have been trying to do at least a little bit around the house. That and trying to game more, just to get me doing something. It helps, because when I’m gaming, my brain is less likely to assault me.

Plus, I enjoy gaming. You probably knew that. I mean, I’ve been doing it almost all my life. Good stuff. And we’ve come a long way since the days of Pong and the Atari 2600. Hell, I barely even use consoles anymore, and Microsoft is getting rid of my reason to ever get another Xbox with their ‘Window 10 Play Anywhere’ initiative. I like it.

Well, I don’t have much else to say right now, I suppose. I think I’ll maybe go play a game for a little bit and decide what to spend the rest of the night doing. Maybe that, even. Who knows? I suppose at the end of the day, I do? Maybe? Or maybe not. I can’t even tell. At any rate, I’m out of here.

Four In The Morning.

No, it’s not right now, that’s when I try to sleep.

4:16pm

So, my sleep schedule is getting more messed up by the day. This is the second day in a row that I’ve woken up late. Well, late for me, way late for most people. Of course, I wasn’t asleep that whole time, or even most of it, really. It sucks.

So, because I can’t sleep when I go to bed, apparently my body wants me to stay in bed and get sleep. Of course, that throws off my schedule. Of course, it’s not like I have a real schedule or anything like that, but it does make things harder. And I don’t get as much time at the computer as usual, since I’m only around it for like 12 hours.

That means, of course, that everything I do is magnified by time. I would say that I should just stay up later, but that’s not what I’m trying to do. I’m actually trying to get myself to sleep at my normal time, and it’s just not working. I don’t know what else I could try to make it work. I suppose I’m going to have to keep living with it until I go back and get my meds reviewed. Blah. I also need to find out for sure when my appointment is. I’m sure she said March 24th, but that’s not what my appointment card says. Guess I’ll have to call them.

Really, not much going on today. There hasn’t really been time yet for anything to go on for me. Well, there has been some time, but nothing has happened yet so far. I laid down early and watched videos for a while. I kinda got behind on watching vids on one channel, so I’m working my way through the backlog. Almost done, only two more videos to go until I’m all caught up again.

I ended up not playing anything last night, when I said I was probably going to play TQAE. I suppose that’s not much of a surprise, though, I end up doing that frequently. I need to stop that. I need to just sit down and do it, instead of stalling and stalling like I do sometimes. I don’t even know why I do it. It’s weird.

So, I am planning on playing something today. I’m not sure what yet, at this time. I don’t know if I want to dive into FO4 right now, or maybe something else. I have so much to play that sometimes just that choice alone paralyzes me.

I suppose I don’t have much else to add right now. I know I’m cold, so maybe I’ll go grab my comforter. Or maybe not, we’ll see. It’s kinda on the threshold between being too cold, and not quite enough for covers. At any rate, I suppose I am out of words for now.