Enough for a nap, at least.
So, I did some 76 today. Nothing too super exciting. Just some Watoga action. Almost got to do another Scorchbeast Queen, but I was at Watoga Station and overburdened, so I went to walk over there. For some reason, though, they fought the queen in a weird spot. Way more south than normal, and when I got about halfway there, they had the queen killed already. I mean, the event had only been going for like two minutes. Every other time has been like 15 or so minutes, but the one time I need it to take a few minutes, some fuckers wreck her, so I get no plans. Blah. I did get a piece of armor, though.
In other news, I have to pay the power bill soon. I didn’t open it until yesterday…and wow. They fucked me hard. My bill is almost double, and I don’t know why. I mean, I don’t think it was super ultra hot or anything, so I’m not sure why I used so much more power in July/Aug than June/July. Guess I’m going to have to change the settings on the A/C.
Sleep was something that really didn’t happen a whole lot last night. Not that it’s happened that much lately at all, but you know. I’m hoping I can sleep well tonight, just because I really fucking need it. I want it. I crave it.
Switching gears, the thunderstorm that was supposed to happen a couple hours ago apparently showed up, at least partially. It was rather noisy at first. I thought maybe someone was trying to get in the front door. I mean, it wouldn’t be the first time. That’s why I need to put the trim back up at some point.
So…it’s been almost three weeks now that I’ve been without Danzig. It’s a little less than that, but only a couple days. I still can’t fucking believe it. I don’t cry as much, but I got a little ugly earlier today. I started gathering up his stuff so I can get rid of it. I mean, my cat thoughts are complex right now. It would be so much nicer if he hadn’t died. But now…I feel guilty that he died, because maybe I did it somehow? And I feel guilty when I’m not crying about it. And I feel guilty when I realize I’ve gone a few hours without thinking about him much. And I feel guilty that I hurt so much, because I put so much on him and he didn’t even know. I’m just so hurt and sad and lonely now. I miss him so fucking much.
So, what do I do now? I guess first up is getting rid of Danzig’s stuff. His kitty tree I need to take apart. I mean, it was pretty scratched up after eight years anyways. The kitty cube, the toys, though I will probably be finding those around for a long time. The kitty water fountain. I still have a ton of filters for it, because I wasn’t great at remembering to change it at the right time, but I think the pump is dying. Of course, it was running for like four years straight, so that’s not too bad for some cheap-ass little plastic pump. I’m sure there’s other stuff. Not sure what to do about my old purple blanket. I mean, it was mine at first, but it’s a little small for me to do much with it, but it ended up in a box, and Danzig used to lay in there. Then after we moved into the house, he didn’t lay in it anymore. But then, eventually Shem did, so at least it got used some.
So, I will be working on that. And I should probably do some scrubba-dubba in the bathroom. Well, I’m probably going to end up scrubbing the whole house, or at least most of it. And there are a few other things here and there that I should finally get around to. Oh..gotta scrub the freezer, since when Danzig was hiding out in the kitchen and was spending time on the top of the fridge, stuff fell down into the freezer. Mostly I’m referring to the little bits of undigested blood that were all over.
But what’s after that? I am not so sure. I mean…I’m alone in the house now. I mean, everyone else moved out in..February? Something like that. And now Danzig is gone, too. That leaves…me. Maybe a spider somewhere? Probably a few fleas around here still, too. But there are no humans or animals here besides me. I mean, I talk to my mom every day, but not a whole lot. You know..the kids only talk to me anymore when they want something. I mean, they have lives now and shit. The only other person I talk to is Auren, and we seem to be doing different things right now mostly. Hell, he’s been offline for over five hours now.
So, it’s mostly just me right now. I mean, I suppose I could go looking for another cat, but I obviously didn’t do so great with the last one. I don’t know if it would make me feel better or worse if I got a new cat. I suppose it’s not something I have to decide right now. Someone out there is asking why don’t I get some sort of plant as a compromise. That’s not a compromise, really. That’s an object. I may be able to take care of it, though. Talking to it would kinda suck. It would never reply. Not that Danzig was great at conversation, but at least he had the capacity to reply.
But one step at a time. Gotta clean the place up first, before I even think about that. Plus I’ll have to pay for at least one vet visit, which I don’t really have the money for right now. So…
It’s an hour past dinner time, but I’m not like..really hungry or anything. My tummy was kinda blah a little while ago, even. I’ll probably have a little something, though.
In wholly different news…that being back to 76. I’m racking up the funds pretty good. I’m almost at 20K caps and the limit is 25K. It’s about time to go wandering around the vendors and see if there’s any cheap stuff to get. I mean, I’m sure there is, I didn’t hit up all of it already. And I already have the 11K Neon letters plan, so I don’t need to save up for that again,
I’m considering making a second camp. I’m thinking a tiny bit about where it is now and where I could maybe move it. And I’d want to double up, probably. I’m thinking that now that I have a second account, I should make a second camp so that I can sell even more shit. I would want to put them close together, probably. It’s all just thoughts right now. I *could* also make camps at like….opposite ends of the map, or like…make the second one up north, or by Watoga. I mean, it kinda makes sense, for me, at least, since Fast Travel to camp is free, and if you’re in a team, Fast Travel to all member’s camps is free, as far as I know.
It’s an idea, nothing concrete. I’m also considering smaller changes, like changing up the current camp some, but I’m not quite sure how. I may look up some camp videos later and see if I can get some inspiration.
But all that is neither here nor there right now. For now, I suppose I am going to find at least a little something to put in my tummy and then maybe I’ll dive back into the Wasteland. It seems like there was something else I was thinking about doing first, but I don’t remember what that might be. Oh well.
I am off. I will be back. I will try to get something up tonight, but odds aren’t super great.