An evening of trials.

At least, inside my head it is. This evening has been very trying. I should say the past few days have been. Well, at least one of them. It’s not been a great time. Tonight I suppose it kinda all came to a head, in my head. I’ve had a very depressive night. Before I started on this, I sat in the dark, staring at nothing for half an hour or so. I hope this gets past soon, though who knows it if will. I mean, I’m always at least somewhat depressed, but tonight, it’s been bad. I think my anti-depressant isn’t working like it should be anymore. And if I comment about it to the doctor, I’ll have to start over on a new medication, and that will not be fun. First I’ll have to wean off the current stuff, which should be easy. Then I have to start new stuff. I don’t know if I will say anything or not.


I’ve also noticed that I’ve been twirling my hair a lot lately. I do that when I’m all stressed out. I used to do it all the time several years ago. I was really stressed out then. And I guess I am now, as well. I’m not surprised, February is all messed up. Hopefully it will be at least somewhat be alleviated this weekend, and then more next week. Hopefully the ship will be righted before too long. I can hope.


I still haven’t quite decided on what game to play next on YouTube. I need to come up with something pretty soon. I’m almost leaing towards Fallout 3, but I’m not sure that I want to do another Fallout right away. I was also thinking about Doom 3. But then I’m still stuck in a rut. Maybe I’ll pick something that’s not currently owned by Bethesda. I know I’ll get it soon.


I need to do more game playing in general, as well. I have done a little bit, but not as much as I would like. It doesn’t help that Danzig spends so much time in my lap, which makes it hard to reach the keyboard, so I can’t do a lot of the playing that I would like. I suppose I could use a control pad, but I’m not sure which games support it and which ones don’t. Of course, that’s not my prefered control method, anyways. I also need to do more gaming with Cable, but we haven’t had as much of a chance to do that as maybe we would like. 


Anyways, I think I’m kinda tired now, so I suppose that I will end this here for now. Time for beddy-bye.