What now?

So, I’ve been going over stats and thinking. I suppose it’s more accurate to say that I went over stats last night, and have spent the day thinking about them, instead of doing something. First and foremost was my stats for this here website. They didn’t seem too bad, at least not a first. Then I dug a little deeper into them. As it turns out, I’m pretty much the only one that actually looks at the site. Me and search engine crawlers. And apparently a couple people that are trying to get into my administrator panel. It kinda makes me wonder what I’m doing here. If nobody is reading, why should I even bother to keep posting? Why should I bother to post my WoW videos if no one is watching them? It was very disappointing to learn that last night that I’ve been talking into a vacuum. I’m disappointed enough that I considered taking the whole thing down. Hell, I still may. It’s funny how all these other blogs and stuff get super popular, but I just can’t. Maybe I should talk about more innane shit than I already do? That probably wouldn’t help any. I just don’t know what to do. It’s not like I can just will myself into popularity.


Next thing to talk about? Twitter. I have a whopping 23 followers, and I’m not sure how many of them are bots. Hell, there may be some inactive accounts, too. 23. And not one of them ever speaks to me. Well, what would you expect from a bunch of bots, really? I don’t know why I don’t have more followers. I sure post enough on there. I guess I don’t hashtag enough or something like that? I know that there are some people that I would like to have following me, but I doubt that’s going to happen any time soon. So, I guess I’m talking into a vacuum on there, too. Once in a while I’ll actually get a reply from someone that I say something to, but not very often. I feel like I should change my bio again, but I doubt that’s going to help anything. So, Twitter is something else that I’m not sure I want to continue with. Don’t get me wrong, I love my feed, I just don’t like the whole silence thing. 


Next up? YouTube. I know I talked about this the other day, but it bears repeating. I have very few views on my videos, and very little time watched. I wish I knew why. I mean, people seem to be able to find the videos. At least, if they’re searching for Doom stuff, they should be able to, since that’s all that’s up right now. But again, nobody really wants to watch them. I’ve considered putting the WoW videos on there, and I’m going to be putting the WoW Leveling videos on there, since they will definitely not fit on the site. The Final Doom LP would go up there, too. Well, any LP I do would have to go on YouTube. But will anyone watch them? I just don’t know. I know that at least some of them will get watched if I post them on SA, but I have to get over that whole being afraid thing first. I’m still up in the air on that one. But if my videos aren’t getting watched, why do them? I imagine other people have this problem, too, but all I see is people with lots of views. More futility, I guess.


So what else is there to talk about? Twitch. Not that I have streamed in a while, but I have streamed quite a few times in the past. Of course, my streams are something else that generally don’t get watched. I don’t know why. I suppose maybe because I’m playing something that no one is interested in at the time? It doesn’t help that sometimes my entry for game name gets blanked out and defaults to Untitled. But I’ve had several times that it hasn’t been blanked out, either, and just don’t have any viewers. Well, besides Auren, I suppose. Still, I’d like to stream more, I just have to get up the nerve to do it. I suppose if I just assume that no one is watching, then I won’t have much problem with it.


So where am I going with all this? I don’t know yet, I really don’t. Part of me wants to just rip it all down. Just go dark, never to return. Part of me wants to just keep going and just hope that because I put something on the net that people will come. Of course, that seems to be what I’m doing now, and it’s really not working. I suppose if I found some way to promote myself, then maybe it wouldn’t be so bad, but I have no idea on how to go about that. I suppose that’s something that I will have to try and look up at some point. So what happens in the short term? I suppose nothing. I suppose that I will sit here and continue to post, and continue to be too scared to do anything else. Maybe I’d feel better if I actually worked on some of this stuff. I just don’t know at this point. I suppose it can’t hurt to try. Well, it might.


So what am I going to do tonight? Not sure. Maybe play a game for a while. I haven’t decided what yet. I was thinking about going and raiding in WoW, but I don’t really feel like it right now. As for tomorrow, I have to go to the grocery, since I’m getting low on food. After that, I will probably end up playing Pillars Of Eternity for a while, since that’s coming out tomorrow. I already have it pre-loaded, just have to wait for it to unlock. Maybe I’ll stream it? It’s a possibility. I suppose that might depend on how many other people are, which I would imagine would be quite a few. I’ll think about it, though.