Some thoughts for tonight.

I did a little bit more gaming tonight. I went and ran a couple raid instances in Burning Crusade. The Eye and once again, the Black Temple. Nothing really exciting dropped, but that just means that I can sell it all off for gold, which is nice. Now I just need to do some recording.


I mean, really, I have a lot of projects in mind: web projects, writing projects, programming projects, video projects and I really need to work on my music collection. Lots of things I want to do, and a lot of them I can’t really do. Well, not easily. Not that I have to learn how to write, but I’m not good at creative things. Which also makes the programming and web projects hard. Also, the fact that I’d basically have to learn how to program from the beginning. I mean, if Visual Basic was still around, I could do it that way, but that’s long gone. And I may even have to learn more than one language, depending on what I want to do. For one of my web projects, I will have to learn how to do CSS and all stuff like that. The video projects aren’t too bad, because that’s mostly just recording, but I should learn how to edit video at some point. I suppose since I’ll be having a lot of time to myself for the next several months, it would be a good time to start on some of this stuff. Of course, I didn’t do anything like this back before when I had a lot of time to myself, but then, I never really had anything quantified that I wanted to do, besides play video games. Of course, I did the Doom and Doom 2 LP’s back then. I don’t know why I didn’t do more. I suppose I should have. Of course, I wish I had been doing more this whole time and just haven’t for one reason or another. I suppose a lot of that is because of my Avoidant Personality Disorder. I’m really good at avoiding things. Why I would avoid stuff I want to do, I don’t know. I suppose because putting in effort is hard. You’d have to ask my brain, and it probably wouldn’t give much of a satisfactory answer, either. There’s a lot of time that I wish I could just sit down and do something. Quite a bit I end up feeling guilty for doing something, like playing games. Which I guess is stupid, because it’s not like I’m neglecting chores or anything like that to play games. I just end up sitting and doing nothing, which for some reason seems to be less of a problem for me. Why that is, I don’t know. I wish I could stop that. I hope that I can get myself to sit down and play Wolfenstein for a while tomorrow. I want to, but as I said, sometimes, a lot of the time, it’s hard for me to just sit down and play. Or sit down and do whatever. I really want to get over that. I suppose that’s something that I should work on. Plus, with all this going on, I still need to do a couple things with my VtM character. I’m kinda stalling on that, because I don’t want to read this big section. Plus, that means more decisions, and that’s something that I’m bad at, too. Makes me wonder how the actual game is going to go. 


So, tomorrow, I have three small chores that I need to get done, then I have the rest of the day to myself. Of course, I have to go to bed early again, since court is Friday morning, but I can deal with that. It will be interesting to see how the whole halfway house thing works. I’ve never had any experience with one, and no one I know has either. That will change soon, of course. So, tomorrow will be chores, my last mount finished off, Wolfenstein, and maybe later in the day practicing Karazhan. Well, practicing the chess event. The rest of it I can deal with. I really hate that you HAVE to do the chess event to finish the instance. I need to look at some solo vids of it, so I can figure this stuff out. I suppose it will end up being like Blackwing Lair, where I have to do several tries. At least if you fail the chess event, you can just restart it right then. Somewhere in there, I should be getting a call from Cable, so I may wait to play until that happens. We’ll see.